My birthday...

I've never felt so terrible in my life... I was sleeping all day... couldn't smile back... felt horrible...

Thank u so much V for tht picture slide thing u've sent me... n always being there...

v

I really don't wanna go to a rural place yet. I wanna get the diploma. I don't mean it when i say tht i wanna go there...

I'm just so tired... Yea excuses... excuses................ i'm just tired.

I will chance..............

nowadays i am just tired...

tired...

Few thoughts...

a warmth inside me... feel peaceful...

Slept yesterday, with the help of the sea shell.... lol... (thanks V)

Tonight I will use different techniques to sleep =)... so funny, i never thought I would have problems for something as simple as sleeping... Life is full of surprises... Life is has many variables... It doesn't matter how hard you try to be ready for what is to come... Variables can change so rapidly... What you planned would not work... You just have to SMILE and TRY AGAIN, maybe exactly the same way, OR maybe in a slightly different way... You have to have true friends, your thoughts may be foggy, you might even loose your hopessssss. A friend is someone who you can chill, chat, share memories and/or emotions and etc... A friend is someone who does whatever you say. A true friend is someone who contradicts you whenever you are about to make a mistake. Coming back to sleep thingy... Your mental health is what makes you really who you are. If you trust yourself, get a good sleep =)=), then there should not be any problems... After all my exams I hated the fact that they were so simple... If I had good sleep and didn't exaggerated n stressed during the exam, I would have ended up getting a higher marks...

I no longer know what tomorrow will be like, neither do I wanna think. Whatever tomorrow brings I will SMILE and do my BEST...

It is still not late for my academics... I can do it... and yes I have HOPE, not only for my academics but for whatever to come on my path...

Life is simple if you take it easy... NEVER miss an opportunity to SMILE and LAUGH...

I feel happy =)=)=)

Date: 10.21.09
Cnr...

sleep...

i want to sleep... i want to sleep... i want to sleep...

no more thoughts... let it be... trust urself... u need tht sleep so badly... don't loose your hopes...

i want to sleep... i want to sleep... i want to sleep...

THIS WEEK...

This week is gonna be a good one...

I've made mistakes and I am to change all of them this week...

. get furniture, start sleeping =)
. get a curtain or a blind...
. be strong...
. it's never fair, just smile...
. talk to the psy prof. - let him help u...
. fsl prof. - learn all the necessary things from her... study hard for it...
. ers group meeting... don't go under responsibilities u can't do...
. decide whether or not to drop course(s)
. be careful with what u are eating... don't loose more kilos... not funny anymore...
. study and read all the courses...
. chill when u can...
. don't stress... please don't...
. SMILE for real...

if i fail i will start medication...

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V, I know that you have a busy week coming... I will not be calling you because I don't know whether or not u are studyng or busy with somethng else... I will be seeing u on tuesday =)... I don't have any exams this week... Call me, I'll do my best to make u smile... BELIEVE IN YOURSELF... My best wishes...

=)

libraries can be fun... relaxing... peaceful...

Amazing time...

cooking tips =)

tht baby did this, did tht book was extremely funny =)=)

Thanks V... for being there always n being who u are...

Life is ...

screw tht !!!

Lets start with something simple =)=)

SOC100H5 is ....


Date: 10.12.09
Cnr...

for V....

=)

Welcome back........................................ =)=)=)=)=)=)

I felt it inside... after so long... I did... HAPPINESS... I was walking... One deep breath n I felt pure love... So relaxing, so refreshing... I thought I lost that ability forever... Inner peace came back =)=) My madness came back... My trust all returned to me... Worries are gone... I will do it... PURE LOVE...

LOVE to LOVE life...

One wish... (revised)

I wanna succeed...
I want my headaches to leave me alone forever...
I want to be REALLY happy n REALLY smiling...
I just wanna find the inner piece that I lost long ago...
I don't wanna think so much on everything... NO WORRIES... --> weakens me n kills my hopes slowly...
I am thankful for the things tht I have n also the things tht I don't have...
I will not start medication again...
I will not let my emotions affect my academics...
I will be happier...
The reasons are long gone so no need to be sad for the things tht I can't even remember...
I wanna chill n have fun...
I am gonna succeed in doing all of the above n live a happy long life with REAL friends n family(present one n the one tht i am gonna form)...

Thank u V for always helping me to the logical n right decisions...

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