stop it.................. no more thoughts.......................please..........................give me a break................................my energy is decreasing...........................need to study........................want to study...............................begging for no more surprises..................................i need the time to study n i need a relaxed mind to understand................................i know i can do it...........................falling behind..........................pains me...............................loosing my emotions...................................is it gud, i dunno.........................to much for me to bare, no more bad surprises........................... i can feel it happening............................. scared............................. will do my best to fight it.....................after 3 years i knew it would be hard n painful........................ last chance to love myself, trust myself, believe in myself.................... i will do it this time......................... or i will not resist the darkness................. tomm i will catch up..................... lost a weekend but wasnt completely my fault...................... unexpected things happened...................... i want to succeed................... feelings n emotions, feeling them way too much...................... too much is harming me...................sucking my life energy......................... sucking all my hopes n dreams...................... i just wanna catch up with my studies n i will.................... tomm i have to get a microwave but i will save my energy for studyng.................. studyyyyyyyy......................... i willlllllll...............i really wanna............... i need to.................there is no other way to cure my soul................... past is past...............have to forget all for now...................... need energy...................... I WILL DO IT.............=((((((((((((((((((........................ i just wanna be a little happy................... a little more relaxed........................ am i asking for too much........................who cares, i am gonna do it....................... i know deep inside tht i can do it very well........................ be organized, make plans..............................n STUDYY N ENJOY WHILE U STUDY......................... no meaning if u only read it.............................LOVE IT............................ENGAGE.............................SUCCEED....................

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