so blurry... i am so tired n yet still i force myself to move forward... before i came here i made some plans... life is so unexpected... my plans were to get a desk, bed n chair immediately so tht i can check some course material before the classes start...... I feel way tooo worried for my coming academic year... It is really normal after screwing up so bad last year... I know by heart tht this is my last chance... love my friends and life tht i have here... I wanna stay n be successful.. I know i can... n yet i am so scared from the if not case... if i fail again this year i know i will be loosing more than the oportunity to have a good education. i can face with all the worries n stress i got at the moment... thts nice... i need a little bit of stress in order to succeed. sometimes i loose my hope... sometimes all these worries n thoughts weakeness me so much, i loose time, my hunger and whatsoever... As the first day approaches it gets harder... just breath... slowly.... clear ur mind... it didnt started yet.... keep ur positive attitude..... damn weird.... one side of me is so sure tht i can do it but the other side of me is just so worried.... tht side of me is so aware of the consequences if i fail.... so sure tht my uni life will end..... i have other plans.... yea.... no matter what happens i will still be me... not the end of the world.... my wish is to graduate with a psychology diploma.... i am sure tht i can help other people....
Dunno what will happen........ i wish for the best, what ever path suits me the most.....
i am a light leaf. very strong wind separated me from a mapple tree. i'm trying my best to resist n stay in one piece. flying to an unknown destiny....
Date: 08.27.09
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