6 years ago tonight... maybe even these very same minutes... I was only 14 years old then but the memories are so vivid n live...
Some scenes are so strong and so powerful, so meaningful... I can forget everything maybe my own name but cant forget those memories...
. the times u thought me how to drive... i was barely 6years old. couldnt reach the pedals... U handeled the pedals and i hold the steering wheel... so much fun... real n pure hapiness
. the times u sang ruppediya lullaby to me... cant remember how small i was... face expressions and ur voice is still in my memory...
. ur jokes and positive energy...
. the day we went to fishing... learned how to fish from u... maybe thts y i dnt wanna go fishing anymore... remember how much i miss u... remember how u filled the bucket with fishes all alone...
. all the times u carried me on ur shoulders... u made me flew like a superman...
. remember how strong u always were... didnt matter what happened, u looked fine... even when u suffered u had a smile there... maybe not a real one but u had it...
. i will never n ever forget how u thanked ur wife... withnessed the situation from the kitchen... u were standing in the corridor... i had rice stuffed in my mouth... then saw u called her... standing on ur feet without any help... U couldnt speak... u just looked at her... followed ur lips and saw u thanked her... then gave her tht one single rose... time froze... rice stood in my mouth, unable to swallow... then u hugged her... u both cried softly... all my family did... no sound but tears racing to reach the ground first... first time i ever saw u cry n the last time... so special...
.i remember the day u grabbed me and kissed me from the forehead... slowly... felt it at tht second... u were saying bye... just felt it... new how much u suffered pain... u knew u would never see me... did my best to prevent the tears... succeeded... i remember how u looked at me... felt the pure feelings... u didnt say anything with words but i saw it in ur eyes... i was 14 but i just understood it... On ur birthday 17 August 2003 we gathered at ur place... u were laying on a sofa... remember everyone's face tht day... we had a birthday cake... u never saw it... u opened ur eyes, just a little... probably didnt recognise any of us... unconcious.... u were in a seperate room. people came one by one... celebrated ur birthday... ur immune system was so weak tht we couldnt even kiss u from the cheeks... we kissed ur hands instead... i spoke to u when we were alone in the room. no replies or any indication tht u heard me... but i spoke anyways... i just felt it coming... Went back to my home, felt so bad... and came a text from my cousin... read the text... he said he was very sorry for my lost... few drops more drops of what was left in my eyes dripped... Ur pain ended tht was my only support...
I came today 17 August 2009... looked at u... no tears came then... so much emotion tht i dont remember driving back... brought u flowers... looked at ur grave... saw the green plant tht grew wildy on u... i hope u are happy grandpa... Never could told u how special u were to me... never had the chance... learned so much from u... wished i can hug u one more time... i would give anythng for tht... nearly 2am and i have to wake up at 4am... 2 hours... maybe i'll hug u in my dream... no one saw; did my best not to be seen, i cut my rope wristlet n put it in ur grave when it was my turn to showel soil 6 years ago... keep my gift... have ur moustashe n beard style... still wear wristlet... missed u... rest in peace... n happy birthday... born n gone on 17th August... coincidence...
U never know what will happen therefore u've gotta LIVE THE MOST OF NOW...
Date: 08.18.09
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